I need to post about the "twinkles" I'm always talking about in JESUS' eyes. First JESUS was up in the sky, in the distance, shining as bright as the sun, but in the shape of JESUS. I couldn't see any features. Then suddenly, he was standing about a foot in front of me. I am 5-foot-10-1/2, and he is just a tad taller, somewhere around 5-foot-11 and 6 feet. He has medium brown long hair and a beard and moustache. He has a long face and a long, perfectly straight nose, gently arching eyebrows and HUGE gray-blue eyes. We all thought JESUS would have brown eyes, but not even close. I thought His eyes were twice as big as mine, but it's an optical illusion. His eyes were FULL of twinkles, seemed like hundreds of lights, all moving around. I think I'm looking at the most INTELLIGENT Being I have ever seen, way way superhuman intelligence. He knows everything. He is looking into my soul with those eyes that KNOW ME INSIDE-OUT AND BACKWARDS, from my best trait to my lowest weakness, but HE LOVES ME, and that love is a tangible substance as I feel it going down into my heart. It's not like any human being that might say, "Oh, Mo, I thought you were a nice lady, but I can't believe you'd think about going out and getting drunk." GOD KNOWS ALL THAT AND LOVES YOU ANYWAY !!!
There is so much God can do for you, wants to do for you. It's like bring EVERYTHING in your life to Him, no matter how dumb or even sinful it sounds. Like "Lord, I was just thinking about going to the bar and getting a double shot. What do you think about that?" I'm serious. IT WORKS if you just open your heart to Him. Or "Lord, I was just lusting after that guy over there. Is that what You want me to do?" Sounds like stuff you should automatically know from the Bible, but I'm talking about when you're in the middle of it. Then He does stuff. All of a sudden you realize you lost the desire to go to that bar, or that guy is just a smelly old human, and how did THAT happen? Then you realize GOD is really with you, in the Holy Spirit, through JESUS CHRIST. You can't see Him. Sometimes your feelings get in the way, but obviously He is right there because how on God's green earth did your entire thinking and feelings change like that? Maybe it's called "sanctification," but it doesn't feel like anything particularly glorious from this end. It feels like I'm 2 inches from getting my silly backside in boo-coops trouble, and the LORD in all his LOVE and WISDOM and MERCY and UNDERSTANDING and POWER just wen' and did something that I don't know how or why He did.
Then I'm going like, How can YOU LOVE ME when I'm being such a carnal idiot? For that (maybe hour) I wasn't even THINKING ABOUT YOU, LORD. I had my silly flesh-mind set on that whiskey, or that guy. Then JESUS starts "YELLING" at me: MY HAND IS NOT SHORTENED THAT IT CANNOT SAVE," etc. and all that stuff He gets SO wound up about. I can't AUDIBLY hear it, so can't tell if he is literally "yelling" or just talking with this excited urgency, because His "voice" is more like an impression inside my mind.
Oh yeah, and He never chews you out if you come to Him. He goes, "Awww! My child came to me with his/her problem !!!" I am also not talking about me wanting to have a drink or lusting after guys on a regular basis. I have thought of each exactly ONCE in 7 years, the only guy I thought was attractive being a waiter at a restaurant--PERIOD. I'm totally straight, but no other guys really do anything for me. What I'm talking about is you can talk to JESUS about ANYTHING and EVERYTHING in your life, from what you're cooking for dinner to moments of temptation. Sometimes I get busy, like I gotta do these errands, or I gotta pay these bills, and I'm doing it all by myself. Then I go, "Wait a minute. Lord, I forgot to turn to You." Even just saying the Holy Name of JESUS has so much power. It doesn't take any fancy or elaborate prayer, just turning your thoughts to God. Turns your eyes upon JESUS--Look full in His wonderful face, and the things of earth will grow strangely dim in the light of his Glory and Grace !!!
Oh, I need to add that once you have experienced God and/or heaven for yourself, when you see all the corruption in churches or religions, it has absolutely NOTHING to do with God. God is so totally far above the human race. It's like the song, "The world didn't give it to me, and the world can't take it away." These days it seems corruption is everywhere, but there really is a GOD and JESUS !!! I like to have a church to go to, as it encourages me, but if they all turn out to be messed up, I still believe in GOD and JESUS. Actually, I believe JESUS is part of GOD, but you can't understand that unless you have the Holy Spirit inside of you. The only way you can get the Holy Spirit inside you is to believe in JESUS, because the Holy Spirit is the "Spirit of His son" that God sends into our heart. JESUS breathed on them and said "Receive the Holy Spirit."
This blog is surfable on the net. Lord God, Lord JESUS, I pray that whoever really needs to hear these things will get here. I really did see JESUS. Here is what happened. I was living in a communal Christian ministry, very cultish. After 7-1/2 years there, when I was staying in a dorm, I had a whole week of nightmares every night. I prayed and asked God PLEASE could I have some kind of good/happy dream, I was so exhausted. I don't know why, but the next night, actually the morning, just before I woke up, while I was still asleep, JESUS appeared to me like I described. I have no question it was real. I have never felt LOVE like that in my life. Shortly after that, this cult pulled me into an office and told me they were kicking me out for, and I quote "not smiling enough" and not being a leader. They told me that I had failed God, and that JESUS was leaving my life, and they made up a phony "scripture" to condemn me with.
When you are standing there with JESUS staring at you, believe me, you have no question He is real. He let me stay there for what seemed like 20 minutes, asking questions and Him answering them but INSIDE MY HEAD. I did not have to talk out loud !!! I have never met anybody like JESUS. He is just vastly more intelligent than any human being. His eyes are like a million stars but yet they still look like pale blue, REALLY BIG eyes. His eyelids kind of look like eye-liner, dark around the edges, and He gots kinda little skinny lips. He has to turn the SHINING thing waaaaay down before you can actually see His face. Once you see Him, you have no doubt He is an aspect of GOD, and that He created you, and that He wants you and has oceans of Love for you, but sin is a sickness of the soul that can lead to death, and He is there to heal us of all that. JESUS is a very meek and humble person, but also He can get very strong when He feels like it. He cries at the thought of losing even 1 soul. GOD doesn't let sin into heaven because it is His home, but He changes us so we can go there. Little kids don't need to get "saved," only after the age of reason. That is why JESUS said a "man" must be born-again, not kids !!! JESUS' name, which is YESHUA in Hebrew, means God (Yah) Saves, or God (Yah) is Salvation. His name is also called EMMANUEL, which means "God With Us" and also "the Messiah" that GOD promised to Israel. In Greek "Messiah" turned into "Christ," which means Anointed One. There is no other Christ but JESUS CHRIST. People today try to say like everybody is a "christ," but JESUS warned there would be many false "christs," don't go after them. He said many will say "christ" has returned and is here or there. Don't believe them because when the REAL CHRIST returns, everyone will see Him. AMEN !!! Even so, COME LORD JESUS !!!
